Who am I, and who ‘should’ I be?

I never suspected that I would be questioning my identity after I attended my first virtual symposium (#RRUMALAT). After several sessions, it has become clear that creating a digital identity is more complex than I thought. The first step in my technological journey is asking who ‘should’ I be in this digital world? 

Hat study” by PermaCultured is marked with CC BY 2.0.

I, like all of us, wear many hats: the Mom hat (a worn baseball cap; comfy and flexible), a teacher hat (a black top hat; great for entertaining, yet requires strength and confidence to pull off), and most relevant to my current blog post, a student hat (a beret; casual yet sophisticated, and requires some practice and patience to place it properly). 

While attending the virtual symposium, I firmly have my student hat on; I am eager to learn and excited to apply what I’ve learned to my practice. Catherine Cronin’s session further substantiated my ideals, stating the idea of “openness” in open education varies across personal preferences and platforms. “Open is not a state…it’s contextual”, she explains, meaning the user/educator decides on what aspects of identity are seen (Cronin, 2017). Her graphic organizer outlining the “4 dimensions shared by educators using OEP” specifically pointed out the difficulty of “balancing privacy and openness”, what she refers to as the “Micro” or digital identity (Cronin, 2017).

I thought to myself, ‘Easy! I am a student; therefore, I will keep my online presence set to student related aspects’, and off I went gathering more knowledge, beret expertly atop my head.

But my decision to share only my student persona was confronted after I listened to Cindy Harris’ session. She argues that a more open approach is the most beneficial. Cindy states that a more genuine, creative presence occurs when multiple parts of your identity are utilized (Harris, 2021). Her box analogy opened up my thinking. By opening myself up and allowing all parts of my identity to show and intermingle, a truer, fuller version of myself can shine through, allowing for a more authentic experience (Harris, 2021).

Although the idea of having all my identities come through is honestly quite terrifying. Am I ready for this? I have been doing pretty good keeping my identities compartmentalized. I am comfortable with choosing which aspects of myself I share in various situations, but I know that Cindy is right. My true self is all my identities: mom, aunt, bike rider, teacher, etc. 

Learning is being uncomfortable; it is about challenging your thinking and ways of doing things. For me, it also requires confidence, trust, and a good support network. I am not there yet, but each course I take and each person I meet in my educational journey will help get me there. 

In the meantime, my beret is awkwardly placed on my head, and all my other hats are well within reach. 

References

Cronin, C. (2017, April 20). Open culture, open education, open questions. In E.Childs (Chair), 2017 Virtual Symposium [Symposium]. https://malat-coursesite.royalroads.ca/lrnt521/recordings/catherine-cronin-choosing-open/

Harris, C. (2021, April 14). The person in the middle of the road: one educators [sic] journey supporting training and education. In E.Childs (Chair), 2021 Virtual Symposium. [Symposium]. https://admin.video.ubc.ca/html5/html5lib/v2.86.1/mwEmbedFrame.php/p/154/uiconf_id/23449276/entry_id/0_zbtpyuj3?wid=_154&iframeembed=true&playerId=kaltura_player_1632766724&entry_id=0_zbtpyuj3

4 thoughts to “Who am I, and who ‘should’ I be?”

  1. I feel a beret is always awkwardly placed, so it is likely perfectly in place, and you are ready for this. I like how you hyperlinked the sessions. I’ll be adopting that in future. 🙂

    Thank you for this post. I am enjoying these posts because I am reading insights into the differing session that I did not watch. I am intrigued by the box analogy (Harris, 2021) as I am a person who is open but open with what I want to share if that makes sense? I ride the line between privacy and openness because my openness has sometimes hindered my progress depending on my sphere. Your post has made me want to go back and watch that one session. Are there any sessions that you plan on going back to?

    Harris, C. (2021, April 12–16). The person in the middle of the road: one educator [sic] journey supporting training and education. [Conference Session]. MLAT Virtual Symposium 2021, Victoria, BC, Canada. https://bit.ly/Harris2021IDinField

    NB- the comments setting does not allow me to italicise the reference.

    1. Thanks for your reply Gill.
      I would like to go and watch Earl Einarson’s talk. There were many people who commented on it, and it brings up some important aspects of education and learning that I’d like to know more about.
      I highly recommend that you watch Cindy Harris’ session (when you get a spare moment!). Her experiences are so diverse and rich; it was very enlightening!

      1. A spare moment you say?? Hahahaha. I am hoping to go back to it soon and a few others. I recommend Earl’s talk. It was worth the time, and he spoke with such ease that it was easier to follow than others for me anyways.
        Have a great week 2.

  2. Great post Terry. I loved the hat analogy, it made reading your post so relatable and fun to read. As for your insites into struggling with how to present yourself online. Creating an online presense does not mean you have to put all yourself out there in the public for all the world to see (unless that is what you want). An online presense is what you want it to be. There really is no right way. I might suggest, making a plan for your online presense, determine where you want to be seen and what public network would be most effective for the audience you want to reach. Decide what will be public and what will remain private. Again no right or wrong answers here. These are just my opinions though.

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